I'm close to graduating and I need an internship.

To be honest, I'm absolutely freaking out. My ulcer has gotten seriously upset, and I freeze and panic when I talk to a possible internshiper employer (if that's a word...). I have no confidence and hardly any self-esteem. The idea of ME doing a website for someone else just strikes fear into my heart and I panic. In fact, the only thing that is driving me is my fear of failing. The idea that I've spent so many years, money, time, effort, and materials and to have it all go to waste...I feel like I'm destined to fail; that I was only allowed to dream, not act upon it!
I'm not ready! I don't know what I'm doing!!

But designing websites isn't really my dream...yet it's become this weird obsession. I WANT to learn more, I WANT to design, create and code websites--but quite frankly, I suck at it. I've gotten better (a ton better!) from when I first started school, but I don't think I'm ready to be "released" from school.

My passion is Character Design and Storyboard Development. But, ...that's a dream.

Oh...and that meme thing is included and updated, if anyone cares about it anymore...